As you would notice update is slow in my blog. It is the time of the year when assignments and exams steal the 'human' out of me. Everyday is the same routine. Going to school, coming back to assignment, sleep to recharge myself for more schooling the next day. The long weekend was fantastic. Finally a getaway from the mundane life. So I join my friends for a little hike up the Webster's Fall.
The trip was worthwhile. The autumn here in Hamilton is just so beautiful. The golden leaves...the sound of the water flowing.... I wish I could freeze the time and just stay there forever. No matter how badly I wish I couldnt run from life problems. The trip does give me a bit of room to reflect on life and things that has been happening to far though. I just need time to heal and let things go...so I can give way to a new beginning.
Autumn..Give me my Spring back
Like Anyone Would Care
Some says pop out songs in blogs are annoying. But for me the songs in my blog represents what I feel...and sometimes contain hidden clues to what's going on in my life. This song now that you are listening to is called the Rip by Portishead. The lyrics are :
As she walks in the room
Centered and tall
Hesitating once more
And as I take on myself
And the bitterness I felt
I realise that love flows
Interpretation:
The girl is talking about herself. She is ready to face the one she loves. She is trying to overcome all the bad feelings and anger she has because she know she still has feeling for him. Obviously there is problem in their relationship. Probably he hurted her in some ways.
Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?
Interpretation:
The chorus represent the battle she has withher own feelings. Whether she would continue to be depressed. Or follow the white horses and leave all the anger behind. White horses represent purity and liberty. She wants to leave the sadness behind but worry she might fall back to it.
Through the glory of life
I will scatter on the floor
Disappointed and sore
And in my thoughts I have bled
For the riddles I've been fed
Another lie moves over
Interpretation
Again worrying about the possibilty that she will not forgive her lover. She knows disappointment is inevitable and worry she may fall back into depression. Whatever her lover did that nearly destroyed her love for him is still fresh and bleeding. But she try to push it away as another lie, hoping it will not repeat itself and move on.
Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?
Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?
That...readers, is exactly how I feel now. Honestly there is a bit of problem between me and him. But we are still holding on to the last hopes. And see if things would get better as time goes... hopefully. I rather not talk about it for now so please dont ask why and what happened. Just listen to the song.
Of Angels and WIshes
Today in German cinema class we watched a very...philosophical and poetic movie called Wings of Desire. The movie kind of reminds us how things used to be when we are little children. Things are more colourful, more beautiful back then. The main thme, that is Innocence, is represented by presence of angels whom only children could see. I must admit...little tears dropped when I watched this movie. Given the difficult situation I have in my life now I can easily relate to this movie,
There are time I wish I have this kind of unseen companion, an Angel
that will always there to listen whatever my badly injured heart has to pour out.
That will never be bored listening to me over and over again about these burdensome problems I have in my life now.
That will stay by my side until things gets better...
and pat my back though I can barely feel it.
That will not make me feel lost and alone in the world
And give me hope to go on and be strong.